Rationality

I find the change in mood after a heavy night interesting. I felt restless, uneasy and was weighed down by matters that were beyond my control. It served me no good and all I did was sleep late. I woke up early, begrudgingly, but here I am sat on a comfortable swivelling chair wondering what’s with intense emotions coursing through one after midnight.

Of course, there’s a rational explanation. I bet it’s an increase in the hormone cortisol or the drip in serotonin or … something, that makes us squirmy.

I feel unperturbed and all right for now. I cannot manifest 90tons of wealth but it’ll be all right, I can’t say if the guy I think is good for me feels the same way but it’s going to be all right, I can’t say if I’ll ever really lose weight but it’s going to be all right, and I certainly can’t promise ever not feeling restless at night again, but with morning comes rationality and calm and I think it’s going be all right.